Happy Midweek guys!
At the beginning of the year, I had quite an incident at my work place.Nothing really dramatic, just kidding! It was so dramatic I considered quitting more than 6 times. 3 of them in my sleep and 3 when I was awake.
I will break it down. I have been in the position I am currently in for quite a while and as far as I was concerned I was kicking major ass . It was only natural that I saw a promotion coming or something close to that. Ha! Nothing of the sort happened(story for another day).
To add salt to the injury, I was eyeing a certain position internally and I even applied for it but it turned out someone else was better fit for it.
I got hysterical about it, frowned about it and actually held so much bitterness that it totally changed my attitude about work. It seemed the universe was just working against me. I figured if I did the least everyday, maybe I could get my boss to see my worth. I could simply not see past it being personal.
This worked for a month or two until I started hanging around some very positive person and he would try relentlessly to get me to be open-minded about the incident.
To be honest, I thought he was just behaving like a manager and taking my boss’s side. Petty I know, but it took a while for me to look at things differently.
He kept telling me, ‘Ida you need to respond to things,not react’. I never really had thought of that in my 20 something years of existence. I have always reacted to things and people. Always.
I made a conscious decision to start responding to situations instead of reacting.
Then one day just like that I woke up feeling different. I decided that I am young , intelligent and I do what I do well. That is my power.I may not be where I wanted to be but if I really polished my art, I could get there.
It changed everything. My attitude was fixed, I had this new urge to be better everyday, I was asking questions and I was doing more. I started to dress up to work and after a long day, instead of cursing out I would have a glass of wine and look at the bigger picture.
Then it dawned on me that this is how shit works in the world. You want things to go a certain way and more often they do not. You hope for certain things and they do not happen. If you let that get to you, it starts to eat you inside. You get annoyed at everyone and at no one in particular, every day is a bad day and you only get worse.
I realized that maybe it was a wake up call or a sign from God. I had been good but I could get better. Matter of fact, I could be the best.
What was needed of me all along was to push myself a little more and if this ugly incident hadn’t occurred , I could have easily remained the same.
My focus now is to get better in every aspect of my life and especially at work. I willingly get to work early, stay a little bit late when I have to and I am more determined than I have ever been. I am hungry to learn(I kid you not I am constantly reading on topics I feel could sharpen my brain and watching a lot of how to videos).
This world really does not owe me or anyone anything and that is just how it is. You want something, you have to work hard enough until it cannot evade you.
I am now very aware of the people I hang around and the conversations I engage in as they greatly affect how I view and react to things. I avoid shallow and negative minds like a plague, because misery loves company.
I hope whatever obstacle life throws at you, you curve it like a pro. That you get better and not bitter.
Allow yourself to grow, to learn and to get over your disappointments without letting them get to you.
Learn to respond to life instead of reacting.
Onward and upward only good people!